Creativity and Me

“Creativity doesn’t wait for that perfect moment. It fashions it’s own perfect moments out of ordinary ones.”

Bruce Garrabrandt

Are you like me? I go through life sometimes going through the motions. I’ll get ideas for this blog or for something else creative in a different area and hope I remember them when I have time to work on them.

I’m finding that creativity doesn’t like that. In fact, creativity is fleeting. If you don’t feed it; eventually it is forgotten. This was my life over the past year. In 2020, I worked on my physical and mental health. In 2021, I began working on my spiritual health. The funny thing I’m starting to see, is that everything – mental, physical, and spiritual health all works together. This is where I am. Integrating all these areas that I’ve previously kept separate. I will talk to myself and say, “You should write about this…” and didn’t. Man, all those ideas…gone.

I believe that creativity announces itself and demands attention right NOW. Much like a cat who’s been sleeping all day and ignoring you (really) and then comes up and demands the pets and loves. I haven’t been the most attentive to creativity this past year. Writing when I feel like it here in this space. Mostly, I’ve been journaling. Handwriting gratitudes and mussing about my current life situations – good and bad. Sometimes having a brilliant “A-HA” moment but that is really only for me and not you.

Coming into this space requires inspiration, thought, and purpose. Why am I writing to you? What do I want to say? Coming into this space also requires flow. Allowing my words to come about and form something beautiful (at least to me) and then sharing it with you. Sometimes, ideas are around feelings and struggles and still others are more nebulous, like the air around us.

These are the topics that I find the hardest to write about and share. Creativity strikes and yet I’m not in a space to let that flow out of me. I think to myself, “I really need to….”, or “I should do this instead”, never giving creativity her due. She’s a cruel mistress, too. If you don’t pay attention to her, she is like, “Sod off!”, and goes on her merry way to someone else more receptive.

I watched a Ted Talk many years ago given by Elizabeth Gilbert. She described creativity like energy that flows along the universe, looking for the person who’s ready to receive. If they are, it will pour into you until it’s all out there. If not, it moves and you forget. She went on to say while writing Eat, Pray, Love that she saw the words appear before actually writing them. That is the magic of creativity! Seeing or feeling and then showing the world.

Today, as I was up and doing my daily Saturday things, I was struck by the feeling that I needed to get out of my home and go somewhere and write. This is hard for me to do, especially on a Saturday as I usually have a dinner planned with family or friends that I need to prep for. However, today, I decided to do it. I packed up my iPad and drove to one of my favorite wine places. I ordered my glass of champagne and smoked salmon bruschetta and settled in for about an hour of writing…to you.

“You can’t use up creativity. The more you use, the more you have.”

Maya Angelou

I feel a little like Ernest Hemingway today doing this. I’ve read where he would go to cafes and have wine and write and drink…and write…and drink some more. I am not going to drink more than one glass of champagne this afternoon but you get the just. I feel like a writer. I am listening to my intuition and left my distractions behind for one hour, to write.

I’m feeling a bit proud of myself and I feel the pull to cultivate more of this nourishment to my creativity. Again, what you feed is what grows. I love writing because I love connecting with you, the reader, in whatever capacity you choose to read this blog. In 2020, I was able to focus on myself and decided to get better…to BE better. That was more of a singular activity. Did I have people who helped me? Of course. But I had to DECIDE that was what I was going to do with the abundance of time given to me. This year, though, is a year of connection. Connection to what feeds my heart, soul, body, and mind. Connection to like minded people (and maybe not so like minded). Connection to creativity – whichever direction it takes me. I already cook creatively. I also build creative solutions to complex business processes in my 40 hour a week job. I desire to build this writing muscle and share what’s on my heart, so here I am. Deciding that I should build a weekly practice of going somewhere and write. To you. For me.

I thank you for being a part of this new journey with me. Xo, Ms Chez J

Flowing and Letting Go of Distractions

One thought on “Creativity and Me

  1. Oh yes, I totally agree with everything you’ve written, from creativity needing feeding to it prowling the universe for those ready to receive the touch of the muse. Wishing you all the best with this new creative journey of yours!

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